And there it is...

Do you ever think that you can "will" yourself out of a certain situation? Like if I just pretend like it isn't true, then it won't be?
I went to see the camp doctor yesterday because my ears were hurting and I've been having headaches for a couple of days. So I'm sitting outside for awhile with this camper who is also waiting to see the doctor. Then the nurse comes out and says we can come inside and wait if we want to. I've already figured out by this point that there is a kid inside with a horrific bloody nose. So she says, "Neither of you have a problem with blood, do you?", kind of laughing. I nonchalantly say "No" along with the camper. This of course is a COMPLETE LIE; let's just say that I have passed out on multiple occasions. But I'm trying to play it cool, thinking a bloody nose is no big deal. And then, there it is, that oh-so familiar feeling of my face being on fire, my stomach getting nauseous, and my head feeling light. Thankfully, I have come to recognize these warning signs and I immediately bent over and put my head between my knees (I don't think anyone noticed, or at least didn't ask what I was doing). The feeling eventually passed and I once again admitted to myself that I'm just a squeamish wussy, and that's probably never going to change.
Oh and the doctor said I just have fluid behind my ears from sinus stuff. Wha-wha.